Times are a changin'

Over the past few weeks, I've realized how things can change dramatically over such a short amount of time. People change, perspectives about people change, friends lose touch, and relationships fall apart. Its not necessarily a bad thing, it's just the wayyy it goes. It just is sooo weird how one event can change everything in someone's life. From what they do for lunch, to the friends they hang out with, to the ministries they are involved in. The worst part about it is God gets left behind in the whole mix. Thats pretty douche-like of us. Even when we have no intention of doing it, we let things change the ways in which we serve God. I've done it, I've pushed people in that direction, and have had people push me in that direction also. I need to stop doin that man, and stop letting myself be put in situations where I'm pushed away from what i need to be doing. Maybe we should continue on with life and serve God in the way he's called us to, regardless of what has happened. I dunno, I'm also realizing how "rambly" I am allatime. Times are a changin', but God's not. Thank GOD. Hey that totally works!

"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." -James 1:17

[Bitch. (see previous posts)]

Fingerprint.

I'm not a scholar

I'm not a child

I'm not an angel

I'm not that wild

I've seen addiction

I've lived the holy

I've clung to fiction

I've let death control me

I've been consumed

I've traveled the valley

I've been with the doomed

I've lived in the alley

I've lost my mother

I've idoled my sister

I've defended my brother

I've learned to miss her

I've broken for them

I've wanted to leave

I've been called to S.E.N.D.

I've been taught to breathe

I've rid of the old

I've put on the new

I've given God hold

How about you?

Make up by Andie Diaz.

Decision Time.

I have officially made the decision to skip out on the Ecuador trip this year. It was a really hard choice because I want to go back so badly, but it's just not the right time for me. I've been praying about it a lot and I really feel that I need to focus on my ultimate goal this summer: Israel. It bums me out because I know I'm going to be missing out on a lot, but maybe God is wanting me to surrender this trip to him so I can focus on the bigger picture. Its a weird thought. Does got ask us to sacrifice things that would glorify him for other things that will glorify him as a sign of our submission? Because when we weren't Christian, He wanted us to surrender our sinful ways&desires as a sign of our dedication and love. Now that we follow Him, what else can we surrender besides our new "Godly" desires?  Eh, i dunno I'm just thinking as I type, it makes sense in my head. Man I sound really preachy. To quote nathan, "I should swear to even it out. Bitch. There. I feel better."

Just a little rambling. Okay a lot of rambling.

I've been thinking a lot lately about God's desire for my life. I feel like I tend to water Gods voice and personality down. I am all for being educated in Gods word, but I feel like it can be a hindrance at times because the words become almost less-divine. Now, I know there are several different theologies about whether the Bible is actually divine, divinely inspired, or completely absent of God's influence in the making, but I'm not writing to get into that. I believe the Holy Spirit can speak to us through anything. Not only through Biblical literature, but also secular literature, music, television, people, events, etc. Doesn't the Holy Spirit have the power to almost tweak the meaning of passages for certain situations that a person may be going through? Isn't that a way God can speak to us? As a student, I've started to see scripture just for what it meant then and to that specific crowd. Well what about now? I think it's unfair when Christians look down over their nose on people who aren't as educated in Biblical context. They may hear God's voice in scripture saying something that might not necessarily be the literal meaning, and Prima Donna "scholars" (notice the quotes in bold) rebuke them for it. It is just a little frustrating to see people torn down like that. It is also really frustrating when you are the one being torn down. I know there are instances in which people take scripture, mold it to fit their own pre-conceived ideas, and then teach on it. This, I don't agree with and they definitely need some rebuking. I guess there is a fine line between the two. One is not so intentional, and the other...well God help 'em.